okay.. now i have lots of time to elaborate on the SITUATION. well. there isnt much to say except that my TWO FRIENDS ARE AT WAR. okay. I AM IN A NIGHTMARE COME TRUE! its terrible. at school they want to be separated.. thats not exactly easy when youre ME. sometimes i feel they dont even know what this is DOING to me. its like... a war with a background of people trying to fight malaria at the same time. i suppose the above comment has nothing to do with the situation but still. its practically the same scene. oh well. i dont even know how to solve this. which makes it all the more worse cuz im SUPPOSED to know what to do. and i can hardly talk to anyone about it cuz the people i usually talk to about stuff are INVOLVED. I HATE THIS. yesterday at church Ailing (the person in charge of HeartBeat) told us to believe that God could make miracles happen. and that he can do the impossible. and to have FAITH. it seems sort of relevant to my problem now. so i suppose praying about it will help a little. i want to get out of this CRAP asap. its driving me MAD. honestly. when you think about it, it seems really childish. ive already told THEM that, but oh well.
another realization in the past week: I MISS BAND! i think im playing my instrument in my sleep. though band is reallyreallyreally time-consuming. i am still pining for it. hope we have to go for practices during june holidays. ooh.
okay. i guess thats a long enough post. for now. am going, according to stephanie, to study maths now. study maths. how strange.