aaaah! I am so dead. havent plucked up the courage to tell my parents about my results. badbadbad. have told che tirih, hope she can keep it all a secret. got our science papers back today, I got 78 out of 100. for maths, my overall EOY result is 60-something, hopefully a B3. chinese though, thats something I cant believe. I dropped, from an A2 to a C5. can't tell anyone yet, the tuition teacher will die of a heart attack. gotta think real hard of a calm and collected way of breaking the news to everyone. for L1R5, I have to get 1 or 2 points max for the rest of my subjects. argh. the chances of my staying in band are slim, but I'm trying to stay positive.. sigh. band today, it made me feel even worse about my poor results. didnt expect to do badly, I was actually quite confident of getting below 10 points for my L1R5. we didnt exactly have practise, it was more of a rehearsal for the graduation day (this is for all the graduating sec 4s and 5s, not just band). we're playing pirates and sock hop (again) and best years plus friendshipRunsDeep for the campfire the same night. have managed to lug my eupho home, with dad's help, of course. if only he knew about my results. and if only he didnt make such a fuss about it. ahh it seems like everything I talk about ends with some SIGH about results. okay, shall stop typing now. goodnight.