indecisiveness.. its the only thing thats on my mind right now. have told parents and tuition teacher about results, disappointment was totally overflowing yesterday. the entire night reeked of the stench of regret. my mother is upset, dad is upset, tuition teacher is the only one so far who hasnt spoken a word of truth. parents have asked me how I plan to cope next year, and their conversation keeps going back to one word, band. thats why I havent said anything. they really want me to quit, but if I do, it'd feel like I was letting so many people down, including myself. band isnt at all about cca points for me, its more like a growing passion for music. something that I couldnt imagine being without. I guess its up to my parents to decide.
I still havent come to a conclusion about my subject combinations for next year. there are so many un-answered questions, and such a minimal amount of time to make that one choice. how to decide? sigh.